Happy Friday! Yes, another Friday! I’m so grateful it’s Friday, though. Mainly because I don’t have the side job on Friday. Also, I get to work on my spiritual work on myself and my healing/spiritual practice. Teaching Zumba in the evening is super cool! I do enjoy my morning classes, too. Though, the evening classes have a lot different energy and people for sure. I can really workout in the evening. Well, I’ll take it back. I can really workout in all of my classes because that’s what I do by teaching Zumba! Today, I’ll share about the sudden change in the same space and same environment I’m experiencing. Hence, the topic is “Is It In Present Time? Or Is It In Past Time?”
I have mentioned that I took a short term job. One day I looked up on Craigslist and saw the posting. Then, for some reason, I knew that job was for me. I think I grabbed it as soon as they posted it or something. It was fast. I saw a job before I headed down to my healer friend’s home for the appointment. In next minute, I was calling them already. Then, I was called to come in for an interview that afternoon. Luckily, my friend lived in the direction of that job. So, I arranged to meet them after my appointment with my friend. They ran a quick test, then interviewed me and I was hired that day and started to do the training and worked from the next day on. It was that fast. Really a downstream is something like this for sure.
It was a very short term project and I was told it would run between 4-6 weeks. Although a part of me was thinking that it was totally not my kind of work environment, something was right about it. I didn’t have to take the job home at all which was so new to me. Everything else including my Zumba gig and healing work were running rather smoothly. So, I knew it was the right place for me at that point. Anyway, the project ended on Wednesday evening.
While I was on the project, the HR person asked if I would like to stay after the project. I wasn’t sure, but decided to ask my options. The option was there to keep working, but the pay rate would be cut to low, the normal rate they pay for the employees. That was very discouraging because it was really low compared to what the project rate was. Anyway, as I have a tendency to have an idealistic view about work and I’m learning to change that view a little bit, I decided to keep the option open and told them that I would stay. So, I started to shift my work there from the project work to the regular work, which might not seem to be too different except the pay rate. I thought I was doing the right thing for me at a moment.
On Wednesday night when the project ended and majority of the short term hire left the work, I was in the training for the new, regular project work. Then, from the top, I had a very energetically rough experience. I won’t get into the details because I can’t really disclose what was about due to the agreement with the work. But, let’s say, I started to have one of my episode during the training. I could feel that the gate is opening up and I could feel, sense, hear, see what had happened in the past. Well, I’ll be a little more clearer. It was a training around a criminal justice system and it was related to a real case scenario. I could sense the deceased, and their strong emotions and pains. I had to request to take me off from the project and put me in the different project.
See, people don’t understand if they don’t know what I go through. People may view that I’m weak. I’m actually not a weak person. I’m super sensitive. That’s a very different thing. I’m not willing to deal with a murder scene and the deceased souls wanting to communicate their unfinished business when I’m not open to it. Besides, if it happened in the middle of my practice, that’s one thing, but this is a job environment. That’s a very different story.
That incident put me in the very ungrounded state that night. No matter how I set up the tools and ground myself, I was a little off. when I was on the different project, it was rough. I was getting all sorts of negative responses in the projects. Though, knowing that there must be something I can learn and gain from it, I was clearing up any negatives surfacing in myself all night that night. It got finally lighter when it was a half an hour till the end that night.
The very next day, I was put in the another project, so I was in the training again. There were several people in the training as well. There, again a very strange and negative things started to happen. There was a young kid who seemed to have some learning disability. That kid was making the training session slow because of whatever he’s got. That’s actually fine with me to be honest. I’m not really an impatient person unless it’s a personal attack to me or something. The thing which was more nerve whacking for me was that the trainer was very harsh to the kid. It wasn’t just him, but other trainer/supervisor was also harsh to him. Maybe this kid has history of something they know but I don’t know. Whatever it was, I was rather disturbed by their treatment to this kid.
Then, every time this kid screwed up something, the lady sitting next to me would literally whisper “OH MY GOD” and held her head. As I was trying to focus on the training, it was rather challenging because I haven’t worked in such environment where people seemed to be rather impatient or shallow minded. Maybe they have a good reason, like having a very stressful time in life, etc. Still, the negatives and dark energy in the training room was unbearable. I was clearing up the space and my third chakra all along and even after the training.
Also, the project itself was getting very rough on me. I was getting so much negatives from the project and I couldn’t really gain my expanded self in my third chakra all night long. When I finished the work and visited my favorite Trader Joe, I finally started to function like my normal self. Still, I was in the slight shock. My entire energy system was in trauma response almost.
When I came back home and did some email responses, my energy and my body started to come back to normal. My head started to work like my normal self. Then, I started to wonder what just had happened. The very next day today, I started to look for a different options of the side jobs. I applied for a very odd job I saw online. As I applied for the job and emailing my friend and my healing teacher about it, I had a clear picture more and more that my side job is no longer a “downstream” path for me at this point.
For the last few weeks, the very same space and environment was a clear downstream for me. In split second, the very same space has changed to the whole different energy and environment. It’s subtle, very invisible except the pay cut, but very obviously negative. As a sensitive person, this is too much to have in my life.
I thought I was learning the different way of working and clearing any residual lower vibration energy from the past corporate job. I thought it was a downstream move. Though, the same space, environment and people can shift to the totally different thing in the split second. I experienced it so visibly and I can’t still grasp the depth and mystery of the invisible realm in this universe.
The lady who sat to my next in the training was actually a beautiful, kind, empath lady when I sat next to her during the last short term project. It was a night and day. Sure, she might have some heavy stuff in life right now. But the change was so drastic that I couldn’t really believe what was happening in my eyes in front of me.
Ok, so all I have described above isn’t intended to say anything badly about the side job I took or a person. I wanted to share how things can change in a split second even if they’re about same people, same place, and same environment.
What I want to say is that we live in the ever changing universe. Everything is changing and we’re also changing every second. We can’t see visibly like a cup is melting in front of you or anything, but everything is changing in every second. So, whatever was working for you, whatever was applicable to you yesterday or five minutes ago can be no longer working on you. It’s all about present time and past time.
When your learning is done, there is nothing left for you to learn in the environment or from those people. Then, the same space, place, people can be no longer the same relation to you. You’ve done your work there. It’s time to move on. You cleared the karma, i.e., unfinished business or you’ve learned things you needed to learn from the person or environment. Then, you leave or the person leave out of your life. That’s how it goes.
When you look at your life, I would like to encourage you to check and see if things are in present time for you or past time. It was a perfect job. Sure, how about in present time? The job was horrible. Sure, how about in present time? Always check in if your environment and surrounding are in present time for you. Everything should be updated to assist your life’s journey, rather your soul’s journey.
With that, have a wonderful weekend! 🙂