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You Are An Active Participant in Your Soul’s Journey

Happy Friday! I have a new schedule this month, so I feel like it’s Saturday but it’s still Friday! I thought about writing a blog last night when I got back home from a temporary work around 11:30pm, but I held myself from doing so much in a day. I can learn to sit in the nothingness, too, right? Now I again need some space to sit in a quietness instead of keep going with all the projects I listed on my notebook, so I shall write a spiritual blog! Today’s topic is about our soul’s journey is not passive. You’re a co-creator of your pathway. Hence, the topic is “you’re an Active Participant in Your Soul’s Journey!”

The scenery is at my new temporary work. I started this work in the beginning of this month. One day when we were about to start out work, there was some obvious conflicts between a new lady who was assigned in a specific desk and the lady who was using the desk in the morning. I guess this work has variety of people who work in variety of schedule. It was very obvious that the new lady did nothing wrong except she probably was setting up her stuff even though there were bags in the desk section.

So, there was a loud upsetting voice, “Don’t touch my bag!” or something like that. Anyway, I knew a little bit about this new lady because we started to work on the same day, but I didn’t know the other lady. Though, since I’m a very sensitive healer, I could tell that the other lady had humongous anger energy which probably wasn’t just about this particular matter. So, everything stimulates her energy, good or bad probably would make her react and she would bite. It’s like an abused dog who is scared and he would bark at you and bite you for no reasons.

Anyway, after a while, I wanted to tell the new lady what I perceived. So, I went to her station and told her what I observed. I told her this, “The lady had so much anger in her energy, so it didn’t matter what. She would have bitten anything. So, don’t take it personally. It was nothing to do with what you did or not did.” That made the new lady a little teary, but at least her piled up emotions and energy from the incident were released. You know, it’s a little too silly to have stress like that in the job like this. That was my first encounter of the other lady.

This week, I sat on the same row with the other lady. I was facing back to her row, but still, her energy was way beyond all over. You know what I did? The whole time I was doing the work, I was grounding myself and this lady, grounding my work station and the entire work floor, removing the beings with or without bodies, talking to the lady by spirit-to-spirit to keep all of her energy in her space because her body needs her energy and her body can’t use her energy if it was out of her body. I don’t know how long I was doing it, maybe 10-15 minutes? I also cleared karma with this lady and any attached beings in her space. I also cleared agreements with this lady. Then, the air, the energy of the air shifted. It was like electrocution in the air in the beginning, but then it became quiet and serene. I was like, “wow… Speaking of using the energetic tools, this is a tremendous help!”

That was my second encounter with the other lady. That day when I felt her energy as a sensitive healer, my body was reacting. I started to have a fear reaction. I would assume it’s similar to when you’re around of Bully energy. Even if you’re not bullied by the Bully, your body probably has some reaction, resistance, anxiety or fear. It was like that. So, when I realized it, I started to remove my fear and anxiety reaction from my energy field. Whatever it is, for some reason, this lady’s energy is lighting me up and I’m reacting. So, I’m going to remove those energy lighting up in my energy field. Then, my fear and uneasy feeling disappeared. Again, man, I didn’t get to experience this much obvious shift when I was working at the corporate jobs, but today I could totally see how my energetic tools are working and helpful.

The very next day, when I came in to work, the desk next to mine had some bags, so someone was sitting there. Then, I had a feeling of this, “Is this?? Is this the lady from yesterday?? Well, I hope not. Well.. but the backpack…” Anyway, after a while, the lady from yesterday came into the room and sat next to me, believe it or not. I was like, “Are you f-ing serious? Hey, universe, are you f-ing kidding me? I mean, what’s up with that? I worked on my shtuff, and you still send this lady in my space? What else do I need to work on?” Anyway, so that day, I was again working on myself, grounding, communicating by spirit-to-spirit to the lady, etc.

As I worked next to her, the lady wasn’t that “horrible” individual. I mean, I didn’t think she was a horrible individual, but I do not want to be around of anger energy much, that’s the thing. I really don’t enjoy anger energy of people. Don’t get me wrong. Anger is a natural emotion and anger tells and helps us aware of lots of things. I don’t enjoy when people spit out their anger energy into outside of their space. As long as any of your emotions and energy are in your space, it really doesn’t matter. It matters when you spit out your energy into other’s space or my space.

Because I worked next to her, I got to chat with her (well, I do enjoy talking to the strangers, so I would talk to anyone as long as they’re willing). I could almost feel or see a “disordered environment” or “circumstances” in her energy field. I think that’s where she grew up. It’s definitely not in the US and I can totally see it probably would be a Central America or somewhere similar. She’s gotta lots of passion, love and emotions. So, I got to know this lady just because I could see/sense/feel more than what she puts out there. I don’t try to look at people clairvoyantly; but, it’s just when someone’s energy is so loud, I don’t have much choice but coming into my vision.

When I was a high school kid, maybe I was just taking sides of people just from what happened on surface. That’s because I was a kid and didn’t know much depth of human soul’s journey. Now, one incidents or even repetitive patterns don’t tell everything about the person. Everybody has such diverse journey. We all have different background when we grew up and beyond that, we each have entirely different experiences as a soul from all the past lives and beyond. So.. how can I or anyone see one portion of an individual and decide that’s it?

Anyway, my experience with this lady made me really think of how our lives are formed by us, including people you encounter. We’re not passively experiencing the random incidents or people, rather we specifically choose and invite our experiences and people we encounter. I sort of feel that I’m cool with my encounter with this lady. With my three encounter during this month in this job, I cleared whatever the fears this lady triggered in me. I even have a great compassion and appreciation of her as a soul and her journey even if she may be creating some discomfort for some people some time. That again is the journey of those who created the opportunity to clear, heal and love. So, I’ll leave it up to them. I only do my own shtuff. Of course, if someone asks me for my healings or readings to assist their journey, sure, I’m up for it!

The take home for you is that you’re creating your own experiences in your life including people and environment. When you feel like a victim or a passive actor in your life’s journey, know that you’re not. Everything you experience and you have is a creation of your own. Hence, there are reasons they’re there to show up. Heal, clear, learn, whatever you need to do, it’s up to you to change and shift your life and your soul’s journey as well.

With that, have a wonderful weekend! ūüôā

You Are in Charge!

It’s December already! There is a custom in December where I grew up to clean home and offices to be ready to welcome the new year. Every year I sort of try to do that, but was never really on top of it. However, this year is different. I was consciously removing the stuff irrelevant to my current life style throughout the year and most intensively for the last few months. So, I don’t have to even think about cleaning or clearing! It’s already been in the process! Yoohoooo! I can’t wait what kind of new to come in the upcoming year! Before the weekend is over, I’d want to write¬†a blog! Today I want to write about being in charge of our lives. Hence, the title is “You are in charge!”

I’m not¬†really a¬†dependent person. I like freedom and spontaneity, so I’m pretty much a single actor. That’s what I thought. Lately, I had a wake up call while processing an incident and realized that I was depending on others in some part of my life. Since I feel that I did all I could be doing for the first phase of my taking steps, I would share it.

I go to Zumba classes a few times a week. Actually this is a¬†newer activity. In fact, I started to go to Zumba class probably a couple of years ago at most. Before then, my love was a step aerobics. Since I realized that pounding on steps for so many times a week has been hard on my lower back (I tore my lower back three times), I decided to slow down from it. Still I was taking it once a week. When the step aerobics instructor decided to give up on that time frame, I got desperate. Then, after I left the last corporate job, I decided to try out other Zumba instructors classes besides once a week Zumba class I had been taking. That’s how it started.

There are a few Zumba instructors I really enjoy, but there was this one instructor whose class had been so much fun. This one is fairly new class for me. I think I started to take his class a few months ago, or maybe at most in summer this year. It was such a joy time that I was so looking forward to the class in the morning. It made a difference in my vibration for the rest of the week.

What happened was that this instructor suddenly announced that he put his two weeks notice to the gym. I was trying to be understanding but my mouth was literally open. That afternoon, I got slightly depressed. Since I’m very conscious about how to shift my vibration to positive everyday, having a fun and joy is so important. This class gave me the automatic joy and excitement in just one hour. I kind of got panicked to be honest.

As I processed about it for the next couple of days and then I happened to go to the graduate clairvoyant class where we read each other. That was the week of the presidency election. So, the topic was what was lighting us up at this current moment. So, each of us read and visited the totally different topics on the readings. Of course, we were different individuals and were facing and experiencing the different matters.

The reading was really helpful as usual. I always value other clairvoyants and healer’s insights in my teacher’s school. Though, what stuck in my mind was the conversation we had during the break time. I was sharing about this instructor quitting and I was telling her that since then I had been seriously thinking about how to replace the joy time of this class to something else. I was seriously thinking about how I can create a joy time. As we jokingly chatted about it, the other clairvoyant said jokingly, “He showed you what the joy is like. You got it, so now he is leaving. Because you’re too dependent, now he is leaving so you can create on your own.” We laughed.

That night and next morning, that conversation kept showing up in my meditation. Yeah sure, the group exercise classes are designed for people to join and have exercise and fun. However, I do have a certain style of joy and exercise I need and look for. So, finding the good classes and good instructors have been always challenging. I’ve been a gym goer for over a decade, and this has been always true. Then, I realized that it’s because I’ve been counting on others to provide a fun and joy for me. I know that’s what classes are for but this message is for me.

Then, I realized that because this instructor’s class has been so much fun, I didn’t really need to look into creating fun on my own. I got a Zumba instructor certificate in February, but it has never been much movement besides making a CD for the future class. So, when I saw it clearly, I decided to create my own joy and fun. So every morning, my intention and energy work on myself is about how to create my own joy. This is a wake up call thanks to this instructor quitting and making me feel desperate.

As I meditated every morning, I started to see the clear ideas of what I need to take steps. One step at a time. At one point, I had a clear message of “go for the gym.” So, I decided to apply for the Zumba instructor position at the gym I go to. You know? As I have been very energy sensitive, I was avoiding the gym environment to be the place of teaching Zumba, but why not? I live in the gym almost. I lift, stretch, do Zumba, etc. It only makes sense to do it at the gym. I did have some resistance, so I kept telling myself to remember everything should be effortless and downstream. All about allowing things to come to me.

I kept listening to the messages popping up during the meditation and without resisting, I listened and took steps one at a time. I talked to the instructor who was quitting to get some insight about how to teach at the gym. I don’t know what I expected from it, but he did tell me that I needed to go through audition, which made me say, “WHATTTT???” in my head. He also gave me a name of the person who is in charge in the area. With that in mind, I decided to at lease get a sense of what kind of person this manager was. So, I decided to join the class which she was teaching couple of days later. Her class was fun. I really liked it.

So, me being me, I tend to be a no filter person, I walked up to her after the class to tell her how fun it was. Then, funny thing happened. She pulled me aside and told me this. “Come over here. You should be an instructor. Apply online. Be current on your certification.” I was like… Okay.. I didn’t tell her anything. Is this synchronicity or what? I’ve been listening to the messages and following them without resisting, but still this is something. I was more excited about the synchronicity at that point!

Two days later, I applied the Zumba instructor position online for the gym I go to. The following day, I think it was the following day, I got a call from the hiring manager (who was the lady I met). We scheduled for an audition on the Friday of that week which was actually three days ago Friday. I made a CD for the audition and went through it. I told her that I had been a hardcore stepper before and tried to teach a few times but it never worked out. She asked me to show her doing step, so I did. Of course, I was seriously rusty since I haven’t done step for more than one year. And?… I think I’m in. She said that she would coordinate which slot to put me in. She also told me to practice step aerobics and maybe I could even have my own class for it, not just subbing. This was surreal..

Anyway, if you have read my past blog postings, maybe you have some ideas¬†on how this attempting to teach a group exercise class has been more than challenging for me. Now, I took the huge steps forward about it! All happened almost in the synchronicity and more of no effort. I guess that’s what law of allowing is like.

So, I’m sharing my story of this to say that we’re not passive on life’s outcomes. Even though we allow things to come to us, we take steps to keep allowing things to come. We’re in charge of our lives. It’s different from the¬†“go-getting” way, but rather knowing we create our own outcomes and allowing the universe to bring them in. So, if you ever feel like some part of your life is a passive passenger or in the victim mode, remember that you’re in charge. No matter how the life’s circumstances are, relationship. career, finance, health, anything, you can shift it. You can take in charge and allow things to come to you.

With that, have a wonderful week! Happy Holidays! ūüėÄ