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Your Awareness Is A Tool

Happy Sunday! It’s Sunday before Thanksgiving! Instead of pondering what I would cook for Thanksgiving, I’m going to chill out and take a good care of myself! Sunday is a great day for that! Today. I left my short term job this Monday, so my week should be flower blooming and blue sky weather. Though, I’ve been quite busy with invisible matter. On surface, it’s been unproductive physically, but I know there are whole a lot more than just physical level. So, I’m ok with that. My blog got delayed because of that. I’m going to write about something related to my recent experience. I decided to write about your awareness. Hence, the topic is “Your Awareness is a Tool!”

Before I left my short term job, I had this image or thought popping up here and there. It’s been on-going for a while. There is one classmate from a long time ago when I started to show up in my teacher’s intuitive school. He is a very talented channel, well maybe he would put as talented “reader.” Whatever he does, healings or reading, it ends up coming from his month, meaning verbally communicate to the receiver what he got. When I was new to this realm, I wasn’t really interested in developing my intuitive skills or wanting to be a psychic, I was seeking for the “answers” to my life. I got stuck in my career twice by then, stuck in people whom I thought I cared and loved including my work, so my needs of getting the answers to where I can go was so loud. I didn’t care clairvoyance or healings or etc. As a beginner verses this classmate who seemed to know his talents for a  while, I was like in awe.

Fast forward the time, he was in the same clairvoyant program at first, but he left probably near the end of the first sequence. He disappeared from my teacher’s school for a  long time. Meanwhile, because I tend to function from the unknown wisdom in myself, I kept going through all the programs my teacher could offer. For I started to realize that I have such huge fear around this “spiritual” or “sixth sensory” realm. When my teacher suggested me to take the healing program right after the basic meditation programs have done, I was in huge resistance. I was a pre-med, trying to give up the passion to proceed in medicine. Healing the word “healer” was so unbearable. I was like “I’m no healer. I’m a drop out. Stop calling me ‘healer’!”

Well, of course, I had huge resistance so I kept going. It’s funny how it works around me because I have this strong “sense” or “voice” in me. I would call this as my “wise self” or “communication with my spirit self.” After the healing program was done, by the way, I was really not comfortable all the way, then my teacher offers clairvoyant program as a next step. I’m like, “ai.. I’m just seeking the answers! I need solutions to my life’s major turning point. I’m not going to be a medium or psychic. What does it do to me?” Anyway, I didn’t say that to my teacher, but I said many things which were along the line of  “I’m not a clairvoyant person” or “I don’t think developing psychic tools are my thing,” etc.

The only reason I decided to take the program was because of my strong “fear.” I could tell that I have so much fear around it. Not that I wanted to find out what this “fear” was, but I knew that having any sort of such strong fears wouldn’t be good for me. At least, I had this innate connection with my “wise voice.” So, I kept going with what my wise self was guiding me I would say. I had a hell of time. I never ever say I enjoyed the program. It was hard. I was having a hard time. It’s not that the program is scary or bad. I must have had so much stuff in me which needed to be peeled off. It wasn’t even peeling off. It was like tornados after tornados ripping and clearing thing out of me every week for the next one year. I was having a hell in life by the way.

The part of me, though, no matter how resistant I was and no matter how it was so hard for me to be in this specific class, I had a sense of “I need to at least show up and meet in the half way,” in other words, “I need to do my part by showing up, then the rest of it would be taken cared by bigger power.”

So, I completed the program while my former classmate dropped out of the program. I don’t blame or judge for whatever people do including him decided to discontinue the program. For it was hell of time for me. Who know how it would feel like for others because everybody’s journey is different. Everybody works on his/her own stuff. No one’s stuff is never the same to another.

Well, you think completing clairvoyant program is the happy end, right? Not exactly. My fear around this realm and “clairvoyant” matter was gone thankfully. My teacher gently invited me to do the assistance role in the next new clairvoyant class. I was like, “Well…. I don’t know, Ginna. Don’t you have a better person to do it? Well… I’ll meditate on that and will let you know. Would that be ok?” That’s how I normally operate. Even when I have an initial resistance, I meditate on it and clear energy from me to get a clear connection with the “Source wisdom,” so I can get a clear answer for my step around things. Yeah.. I did take that role. In fact, I continued to take that role one program after another till my teacher moved to across the water this fall.

Why am I writing my spiritual learning journey? Well, the classmate who disappeared from the program started to show up around the time I started to have a vision of him showing up. He came to one clairvoyant graduate class to receive a reading. I was attending to that specific class that day. So, I was in that reading. Although in my view, the message from the readings from multiple people there were crystal clear, he hasn’t quite completed his clairvoyant program. By the way, I’m not pushing sales person to say that clairvoyant is everything. Though, there are certain things that clairvoyant program would help people and his soul’s journey is definitely in that case for sure.

Fast forward again, I started to have a vision again about this classmate. I was busy handling my daily life by adding the short term job on top of my Zumba gigs and my spiritual/healing practice, so I didn’t have much time to ponder. So, I asked the wisdom what this all about. I got, “exchange.” So, I pondered. Then, I interpreted as “healing/reading exchange with this former classmate.”

Part of me was like, “well… I’m not sure if this is good energy exchange.” Though, I sort of don’t like things keep popping up and me not doing anything about it. If this isn’t a good call, rather it’s not a downstream move for me, normally things don’t run smoothly. So, either way, I would know. By now, I know how energy runs through my life and how my life tends to run through energy. So, I trusted that and went ahead and emailed him to throw an idea of exchanging healing/reading. He took the idea and we had the two exchange.

Ok, the introduction got really long, but that’s what’s going on between me and this person pretty much. Though, I think what happened was that his “wise self” or “Higher Self” was pinging me here and there because he needed something. What’s my part of exchange. Well, it was a so much work throughout this short two exchange we had, but I realized this morning that my vision, my clairvoyance is crystal clear than it’s been lately. By giving my part of readings/healings to him yesterday cleared my stuff pretty good. Yeah, I remember now that when you do readings to others, it also clear so much out of you as well. It’s very mutually beneficial.

I decided not to continue the exchange because the work around it takes so much time and work because of his state of spiritual awareness. journey. That’s ok, but I’m not really willing to have an extra work while I really need all my energy and focus on my priority matters.

As I look back the two short healing/reading exchange I had with him, I was crystal clear when his reading was questionable and when it might be something to ponder. If it was me before, let’s say if it was me during my initial clairvoyant class, I probably was just in the mess with all the energy and mixed messages coming in. By now, I realized when people say certain things which has some impurity, my senses and head put the dot on it and I start questioning. It’s like when you are washing vegetable, you discard what’s not good from a bunch, sort of like that. Well, it’s easy for me to say now after being more crystal clear without his energy in my space, but after receiving his readings in our first exchange, I was having a heck of time for a few days, though.

So, with all the long story combined, what I wanted to share with you is that you, yourself is a tool. Sure, I can teach you many many spiritual, energetic tools to help you navigate your daily life easier. That’s definitely useful and helpful tools. Though, the most important tool is you and your awareness. Unless you become a tool yourself, nothing really works for you so well. Even if you don’t exactly know what’s going on, as your awareness grows, you recognize things much quicker and easier (than it could have been without your present awareness).

With that, have a wonderful Sunday and lots of fun, love and gratitude on your Thanksgiving! 😀

 

Importance of Not Doing Anything

Happy Friday! Friday became my blog writing day this fall. I just finished the remote healing/reading and I feel grateful that I get to do my healing practice every week. I’ve been up doing my healing work this morning, but decided to make it a work from home kind of day! Today I’ll write about doing nothing is more important than doing. Hence, the topic is “Importance of Not Doing Anything!”

I have a three-day off weekend this weekend from the short term job I took in October. This is the first weekend I have a Sunday off or have three-day off from the job. I’m so grateful. I can use time for my healing business! I can finally make time to make more brochures, maybe to  try again to shoot a introduction video clip for my website, creating a newsletter, etc., etc. I can do a lot of things back to back as a “task,” but when it comes to my healing practice, I do my best not to do such and check mark as a “task.” I set my healing work in a specific vibration, and I’m very specific about how I want my healing practice to be. So, I do my best not to rush or do projects like chores.

My spiritual practice is helping me to shift the way I view things and operate my life. I can be a very type A driven person if I shift the gears in the different direction in my life. I could be working in this term job straight up everyday like some of the people I met are doing till this projects end. Each person’s goal is different. Sure, the large part of the reason people took this project must be a monetary energy, and the same thing applies to me as well. Though, I do have a very big picture in what I want to do, so I made sure to keep my Zumba teaching schedule as is. Because of that, I ended up blocking my Friday and Saturday from this term jobs, which gave me a couple of days for my healing work as well. So, in the big picture from my desired outcome, it’s working for the best for me at this moment.

Because I’m an empath and sensitive, I do need a big space in my life in order to clear out other’s energy from my space. I enjoy talking to strangers, yes. I do enjoy people, yes. I have tons of energy, yes. Still, I have to make sure that I have time and space to clear out all the noise that got into my space through the day and week. I think it took me for a long time to realize and learn that’s what it is for me. I used to run my life like no tomorrow. I would work 12 hours per day for the projects and kept going. I would give up on my exercise because I had no time and was tired. I would give up on feeding myself nutritious food because I had no such time to cook. Then, I would end up totally destroyed and it took me for a long time to recover from it.

Everything I have done in life especially since I opened up to the spiritual realm has been the great resources for me. Ever since I started to teach Zumba, I realized that I needed to eat differently. I started to research what the fitness professionals eat. I’m not into dieting to lose weights because it just doesn’t feel aligned to me, but I did learn a lot about different ways of preparing meals and food for nutrition. Thanks to that, I hardly ever eat out or buy prepared food to eat any more. I cook chunk of food including protein snacks for the week, so I won’t lack in nutrition when I don’t have time throughout the week.

I used to meditate more often during the day since I had more time flexibility, but now I have a little time limitation. Still, I do meditate and clear my energy everyday. My practice of meditation and self energy clearing have been a long term practice by now, so no matter how my life schedule can be, it won’t be pushed out to be diminished. I just wish I would have a little more time before bed at night, so I could clear out energy before bed better. Though, that as well needs to be more creative. I need to find the way to put that in before bed more somehow.

I used to have the needs to do the activities to fill my day, so I would feel like I was productive. Feeling productive is good sometimes for sure, but not all the time any more. There is a good time to be like that. When you’re in your head too much or your head is spitting out negatives, being active and productive definitely shift your mode of negative vibrations. When your head is calm, it’s much better to do nothing. I would include meditation as doing nothing.

We need to have a space to connect to the Source energy. We need to be able to hear our Higher Self. When we’re so busy, doing projects after projects, or being so tired, we can’t hear our Vibrational Being. People who are impatient probably have some challenge in having some quiet time and space. But, this is a must if you want to be fully capable person as who you really are. The reason spiritual workers and any others suggest meditation practice is that meditation shifts your vibration to be much calmer and receptive mode. You connect with the Source energy and communicate with your Higher Self in meditative mode.

If you’re dipped in the daily, weekly routine with no time at all for your soul, it would be impossible to bring in abundance and your desired outcome. How would you know if you’re in the wrong direction? Well, nothing is a wrong direction in terms of a soul’s journey, but how would you know you need to take a look at a different pathway for your desired outcome? If you’re too busy and overwhelmed with the programming, limits, societal noise, other’s energy, etc., you can’t really hear what your true path is and what the true message is for you.

I’m really not good at it, but taking a vacation is, therefore, a necessary items in your life. No matter how your budget is tight, no matter how your family obligation makes it impossible, making a space and time off for yourself is a must item on your grocery list. If you desire anything better in any part of your life, make time to do nothing for yourself. It might be challenging till you do it, but after you take time for yourself, it will give your vibration some opportunity to shift if you want to. Without shifting your vibration, nothing including your desired outcome shall come.

With that, have a wonderful Friday and weekend with rather doing nothing! 😀

 

 

You Are An Active Participant in Your Soul’s Journey

Happy Friday! I have a new schedule this month, so I feel like it’s Saturday but it’s still Friday! I thought about writing a blog last night when I got back home from a temporary work around 11:30pm, but I held myself from doing so much in a day. I can learn to sit in the nothingness, too, right? Now I again need some space to sit in a quietness instead of keep going with all the projects I listed on my notebook, so I shall write a spiritual blog! Today’s topic is about our soul’s journey is not passive. You’re a co-creator of your pathway. Hence, the topic is “you’re an Active Participant in Your Soul’s Journey!”

The scenery is at my new temporary work. I started this work in the beginning of this month. One day when we were about to start out work, there was some obvious conflicts between a new lady who was assigned in a specific desk and the lady who was using the desk in the morning. I guess this work has variety of people who work in variety of schedule. It was very obvious that the new lady did nothing wrong except she probably was setting up her stuff even though there were bags in the desk section.

So, there was a loud upsetting voice, “Don’t touch my bag!” or something like that. Anyway, I knew a little bit about this new lady because we started to work on the same day, but I didn’t know the other lady. Though, since I’m a very sensitive healer, I could tell that the other lady had humongous anger energy which probably wasn’t just about this particular matter. So, everything stimulates her energy, good or bad probably would make her react and she would bite. It’s like an abused dog who is scared and he would bark at you and bite you for no reasons.

Anyway, after a while, I wanted to tell the new lady what I perceived. So, I went to her station and told her what I observed. I told her this, “The lady had so much anger in her energy, so it didn’t matter what. She would have bitten anything. So, don’t take it personally. It was nothing to do with what you did or not did.” That made the new lady a little teary, but at least her piled up emotions and energy from the incident were released. You know, it’s a little too silly to have stress like that in the job like this. That was my first encounter of the other lady.

This week, I sat on the same row with the other lady. I was facing back to her row, but still, her energy was way beyond all over. You know what I did? The whole time I was doing the work, I was grounding myself and this lady, grounding my work station and the entire work floor, removing the beings with or without bodies, talking to the lady by spirit-to-spirit to keep all of her energy in her space because her body needs her energy and her body can’t use her energy if it was out of her body. I don’t know how long I was doing it, maybe 10-15 minutes? I also cleared karma with this lady and any attached beings in her space. I also cleared agreements with this lady. Then, the air, the energy of the air shifted. It was like electrocution in the air in the beginning, but then it became quiet and serene. I was like, “wow… Speaking of using the energetic tools, this is a tremendous help!”

That was my second encounter with the other lady. That day when I felt her energy as a sensitive healer, my body was reacting. I started to have a fear reaction. I would assume it’s similar to when you’re around of Bully energy. Even if you’re not bullied by the Bully, your body probably has some reaction, resistance, anxiety or fear. It was like that. So, when I realized it, I started to remove my fear and anxiety reaction from my energy field. Whatever it is, for some reason, this lady’s energy is lighting me up and I’m reacting. So, I’m going to remove those energy lighting up in my energy field. Then, my fear and uneasy feeling disappeared. Again, man, I didn’t get to experience this much obvious shift when I was working at the corporate jobs, but today I could totally see how my energetic tools are working and helpful.

The very next day, when I came in to work, the desk next to mine had some bags, so someone was sitting there. Then, I had a feeling of this, “Is this?? Is this the lady from yesterday?? Well, I hope not. Well.. but the backpack…” Anyway, after a while, the lady from yesterday came into the room and sat next to me, believe it or not. I was like, “Are you f-ing serious? Hey, universe, are you f-ing kidding me? I mean, what’s up with that? I worked on my shtuff, and you still send this lady in my space? What else do I need to work on?” Anyway, so that day, I was again working on myself, grounding, communicating by spirit-to-spirit to the lady, etc.

As I worked next to her, the lady wasn’t that “horrible” individual. I mean, I didn’t think she was a horrible individual, but I do not want to be around of anger energy much, that’s the thing. I really don’t enjoy anger energy of people. Don’t get me wrong. Anger is a natural emotion and anger tells and helps us aware of lots of things. I don’t enjoy when people spit out their anger energy into outside of their space. As long as any of your emotions and energy are in your space, it really doesn’t matter. It matters when you spit out your energy into other’s space or my space.

Because I worked next to her, I got to chat with her (well, I do enjoy talking to the strangers, so I would talk to anyone as long as they’re willing). I could almost feel or see a “disordered environment” or “circumstances” in her energy field. I think that’s where she grew up. It’s definitely not in the US and I can totally see it probably would be a Central America or somewhere similar. She’s gotta lots of passion, love and emotions. So, I got to know this lady just because I could see/sense/feel more than what she puts out there. I don’t try to look at people clairvoyantly; but, it’s just when someone’s energy is so loud, I don’t have much choice but coming into my vision.

When I was a high school kid, maybe I was just taking sides of people just from what happened on surface. That’s because I was a kid and didn’t know much depth of human soul’s journey. Now, one incidents or even repetitive patterns don’t tell everything about the person. Everybody has such diverse journey. We all have different background when we grew up and beyond that, we each have entirely different experiences as a soul from all the past lives and beyond. So.. how can I or anyone see one portion of an individual and decide that’s it?

Anyway, my experience with this lady made me really think of how our lives are formed by us, including people you encounter. We’re not passively experiencing the random incidents or people, rather we specifically choose and invite our experiences and people we encounter. I sort of feel that I’m cool with my encounter with this lady. With my three encounter during this month in this job, I cleared whatever the fears this lady triggered in me. I even have a great compassion and appreciation of her as a soul and her journey even if she may be creating some discomfort for some people some time. That again is the journey of those who created the opportunity to clear, heal and love. So, I’ll leave it up to them. I only do my own shtuff. Of course, if someone asks me for my healings or readings to assist their journey, sure, I’m up for it!

The take home for you is that you’re creating your own experiences in your life including people and environment. When you feel like a victim or a passive actor in your life’s journey, know that you’re not. Everything you experience and you have is a creation of your own. Hence, there are reasons they’re there to show up. Heal, clear, learn, whatever you need to do, it’s up to you to change and shift your life and your soul’s journey as well.

With that, have a wonderful weekend! 🙂