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Our Soul’s Relationships – Past Lives

Good Friday morning! Before I start my healing practice for today, I wanted to write a post about one topic, which is about past lives. I have written some blogs about past lives before but today I wanted to give you a specific example of mine. Well, mine and a soul I have had strong relationship with. I talk about many things to many people, but talking about past lives of mine is a little bit different story. Today, I shall write one since one healing I had made me think of our past lives. Hence, the topic is “Soul’s Relationship!”

As I mentioned before, I was seeing someone for a little bit over a year probably. I don’t remember how long because we had almost no physical interaction such as seeing each other, talking on the phone, etc. The only interaction, well, the interaction we had were all energetic and via text. It’s rather strange when someone asks you to see each other; yet, one is not willing to do much with you except completely living in your space energetically. I’m going to write about this person, this soul’s relationship with me and his past life and our past life, at least one of them.

While I was still “energetically seeing” this person, my intuition was always wanting to change the relationship. Either it is cutting the cord or shifting to the better. Whatever it was, the way it was with this individual was very toxic to my energetic system because he was eating up my energy system. As a sensitive healer and clairvoyant, I could tell that; however, it was so hard to even change because when I did that once, he showed up at my door. I’ve never had or met this kind of experience before in life. At that time, I was still doing the space holder role in a clairvoyant class in my teacher’s school, so I asked my teacher if she would like a genie pig for the reading practice for the class. That class didn’t have much reading request probably because one of the students was very against readings (don’t know why she took the program…).

Rewinding back, if I think of it, what happened was that I texted him one day with “Love you~.” You know, you say “I love you” to a kid, a dog, a friend, a family, nothing big. I got to know the person more than just being an acquaintance, so as a heart chakra person, my love to this human being was present. I know my love to all the human is always present. So, I casually texted that to end the text conversation. Then, he shut me out energetically. It was really obvious to me since I’m super sensitive. I did this once before and he did the same reaction. So, this time, I even asked the universe and the Supreme Being of this universe if this was a “safe” thing to say to him. I got, “go for it.” So, even though I was like, “are you sure???” I went ahead and texted “love you.” Then, he pushed me out with the energy emission……

My teacher agreed and I presented to the class to read this person in the class. Of course, I did check with his “soul” if he was for it. I won’t just take a peak on someone’s soul’s journey. I also knew that his soul was asking me for something and I couldn’t quite tell what it was. So, I decided to borrow the more neutral clairvoyants’ look on it. I asked the students to first ask him, his soul if he was for it. If he wasn’t, we wouldn’t do the reading. We got “yes” from his soul, so we went ahead.

My request was this. I have this person, friend, not even a boyfriend yet way beyond acquaintance energetically. I can’t understand what this individual wants as a soul from me and I want to get a reading of this individual. Not for my sake, well maybe a little but I see that his soul wants to take a leap and asking me to help him for that. I don’t know what that is, so I need you guys to help this by reading this person. Then they started reading as how the program lead them to proceed. After the basic reading of this person’s spiritual state at that point, they started to dip into the past life reading.

The interesting thing was a couple of the readers started to read the very plain past life of his which tells a lot like his character in the current life. So, I was just doing my role to hold the space and clear out the room energy, and making sure the student readers are releasing and not taking energy on them. Then, one of the students started to say that she sees a completely different life time. When she said that, I said “go ahead and jump in.” For, before she said that, I saw his “soul” handing over something to this student reader in my clairvoyant vision. So, I knew his soul specifically picked this student reader to read this specific past life.

She stated that “this is not good, pretty bad” up front. So, I said, “ok.” She continued, “it looks like a World War II and it was in Japan. This person was a kid, maybe 8 or 9 years old. He and other, so many others died with the atomic bomb. The fear of losing everything in one sudden instance was so big.” My teacher went, “Ok, so this is the reason of his ‘push’ and ‘shutting you down,’ Naomi. He has an enormous fear of losing the important people and things in his life, so he shut you down before it happens.”

That was an unexpected information. I had no idea because I don’t look at people that way. I won’t read people in my personal life, no way. Did that reading change how I proceed to this person? Yes, it did. Did it help me in a good way? “Yes and No.” It helped me to be much more careful and gentle around this person especially when it comes to his “fear factor.” So, I was always understanding and came from the unconditional love space. However, because I’m a strong empath, this reading put me in the very risky spot I believe. I didn’t realize at then because I was very focused on the class space and the safety and fairness to this individual. I think it delayed my action to separate from this soul energetically for the highest good for myself (and for him).

That’s one past life which was really strong of his. It was right before this current life time, so the energy left from the past is still strongly present. By the way, this individual is working on his “death picture” because he died so young in such traumatic manner. I’ve witnessed him working on his death picture in this life time, and I could tell that’s part of the big tasks his soul wants to heal. Anyway, at that point after the past life reading of his soul, my role with this individual switched to a healer and a man in myself.

When this individual’s energy kept invading my space every single week at certain day of the week, my life started to become really hard to manage. This person was having a very rough time in life, work life, and his energy was really needing. Then, his energetic invasion to my space was significant and I woke up every morning, soaked in his energy even though I didn’t meet this person or didn’t talk. It was very sporadic text once in a while or nothing. Still, when his text was coming to my cell phone, I woke up with heavy energy. I couldn’t even put my life together with someone’s energy sitting in my space so heavily. When it was just so unbearable while my life needed a major shift and needed my full attention to focus, I decided to get some help from the clairvoyant readers.

This time, I went to the graduate clairvoyant class from my teacher’s school. Basically, they’re my colleague clairvoyants and healers. I always value their visions and insights because each person has different talents. I told them below. “I was seeing this person for a while. Well, actually, seeing is not really seeing. We hardly ever physically see each other. All the communication was done by text. There is no relationship per se like normal relationship; yet, this person’s energy is completely invading my space. No matter what, how much I remove the cords and break agreements with his soul, I can’t move his energy out of my space. His energy keeps coming back really coarsely and I need help. I can’t live like this every morning by trying to clear up his energy from my space for hours when I need my energy and focus to shift my life style.”

Immediately, one of the readers started to disclose one of his, our past lives. She said below. “Immediately after you said all the communication was done by texting, it makes so much sense because I see the past life with both of you. You guys were brothers and he was imprisoned for a wrong accusation. You were trying to help and went everywhere to get him out of the prison and get him out of his wrong accusation, but you haven’t been successful. You did everything you could but he was in prison for the rest of his life. The only hope he had while he was in the prison was your letters. You wrote him letters to encourage him and to keep his hopes up. He was looking forward to your letters, but he was never open to you fully. He was closed up and just open when your letter comes in. He is doing the same thing in the current life. He has walls up so tall and I don’t think he lets anyone in. the only space he opens is when your energy greet him, he lets it in, but he doesn’t let you in fully at all.”

I was crying all the way through the reading. I mean, I didn’t know this specific past life with us, but the energy and his behavior told me so much that there is no question that this past life was still carrying over. A lady continued, “Well, if you do this and that, maybe his state gets milder. Is this relationship fair to you? Probably not. Does he need you? He definitely lives on you. He is actually living in your space and breathing from your space.” Yeah, make sense because no matter how I did, I couldn’t stop his energy coming into my space so strongly.

After the reading I received, my mind was in one focus. I need to cut the cord. I wrote him a letter, well an email. I told him straight up, not about the past life, but how I perceived our relationship was and how I was not treated well. I wrote that I wanted to have a kind and nurturing relationship if I were to have one and his wasn’t doing such, so I needed to end the current matter. I also noted that no matter what, I did love him as a person, as a human and as a soul. If he ever needed my assistance, call, email or talk to me but not “texting.” That was the end of it.

Of course, after that, I had to deal with his energetic resistance and reaction coming into my space. I was in tears everyday, day and night, removing his cords from everywhere in my space which kept coming. I could feel his fear, anger, grief, etc. It was unbearably painful for someone empath like me. Though, each week the energetic experience got slightly less. I don’t know how long it took. I was also dealing with so many catastrophe in my life after I wrote an email to him, so I was in the serious growth period in life. That was probably in June. Now I look back, maybe because I made a major shift in my soul’s relationship with the other soul, the dysfunctional relationship, my life took the serious turns. My summer was so hard. Now, the storms have passed and I’m heading into the different phase I feel.

Ok, so I’m sure it was a long story, but it’s my true recent experience. Even if you don’t believe in past life, maybe you can ponder what can affect your energetic, soul’s journey. It’s a lot more than just a visible matter. We are very complex energetic beings. I’ll leave it up to you how you perceive it.

With that, have a wonderful weekend! ūüôā

Lessons and learning

I’m sure you’ve heard of some spiritualists or healers say, we’re here to clear karma and learn the lessons or some sort. The question is, do you really know what they’re talking about? Do they really know what they’re talking about? Saying is one thing because it’s true; knowing is another. So, I thought I would share what I’m experiencing currently as my lesson and learning.

Until recently, I thought I knew what I was talking about when they say, we’re here to learn lessons. I think we all¬†know to a certain degree. I didn’t know this “lesson”¬†is so hard. Here is the deal; each person has different lessons to learn from the specific life times. Why? Because each one has different past experiences, i.e. past lives they went through. None of us had a same experiences through a same life time. So, of course the lesson created or left over from the past differs, right?

I mentioned in the earlier blogs that I took a position which I felt that the universe has presented it to me out of the blue. Knowing that it wasn’t what I actually visualized for myself, I resisted it big time. I still resist it from time to time when things hit me and light me up. The thing is that, even though it doesn’t make sense to me, I always get “I meant to be in this environment.” So, I resist, bitch and moan from the¬†time to time, I also know that this must be something I have to go through in order to learn something for my next step. That’s how I operate my life as a spiritually intuitive healer. I’m no Dalai Lama, so I struggle through it daily.

This is what I gathered so far from what I’m experiencing. I grew up in a society which is a male dominant society, I would call.¬†However, I¬†left to move to the US¬†twenty¬†years ago. Unlike¬†many of the immigrants from there, I somehow got disconnected from my original country I grew up in.¬†I was a late¬†child, so my family wasn’t a tech savvy¬†people. So, along the line,¬†I got tired of making an effort to connect with them who still live there while they made no effort on their part. Plus, all I seemed to be getting was discouragements every time I connected with them. (Obviously, I was¬†young spiritually, too…..) To be short, for the most of my twenty years, I didn’t speak the language I grew up with, not by choice, but I was just too busy trying to survive in the new society. What happened was,¬†in those¬†20 years, I learned the completely new¬†perspectives because I didn’t have¬†my other part of the culture coming in to interfere. I bumped into many things like a toddler might have done, but have learned things from that. So, I’m kind of a strange hybrid who can see two¬†views, but not really attached to either of them.¬†

The gift¬†from this is¬†that it gave me the different dimensions to see things. If¬†my current¬†job was brought to me to use my gift or talent, it’s another story. But, I don’t think it was so. I think it is for me to learn the lessons and remove the old programming I still carry on from where I grew up. I now work with people who carry the strong conditioning from the society I grew up with and this job involves with people from¬†there. It’s beyond dealing with two languages which I’m not used to doing it. It’s more to do with me getting lit up all the time whenever the cultural energy, male dominancy, all the others stuff come in. Every day, I have to deal with what I haven’t dealt with so intensively for the past¬†twenty years, either it was my choice or not. It’s so hard really. I feel like I’m trapped in the strange space where I don’t even know where it is.

What’s the point of being in the environment where it’s so hard for me? This is where the “lesson” topic I’m referring to. We go through the life lessons which we, as a soul, planned to go through. At certain point of life, there are check points it seems where your process of learning lessons would be checked. So, if you’re doing great, hopefully you are, maybe the check point energy won’t cut the curve to dump the massive hard lessons you still need to clear. I’m still going through this check point, so I can’t say I didn’t do or did do ok till this point. But, for sure, it’s intense. What happens if I run out of this environment? Highly likely, my next check point would be harder, and I don’t think I would like a senior moment of massive hard lessons. So, I bitch and moan still, but once in a while, I have a glimpse of enlightenment and say, “I take this as a gift and I’m going to clear all my resistance and¬†stuck energies surfacing from this!”

This is not to say that¬†you should¬†pick the hardest path in life to learn¬†lessons because each person really has a different path planned. However, if you ever keep bumping into the same pattern or the same kind of environment, maybe it’s time for you to stop and think. What is it I’m supposed to get from this? What haven’t I dealt with yet?¬†Is this a completely wrong¬†space¬†for me to be in¬†or is it where I meant to be in? Things really happen for reasons. Nothing is¬†by accident no matter how it may appear. So, it’s all up to you to¬†learn and evolve.¬†If you’re in the hard lesson now, think how it is helping you to remove the old trapped energies from your energy field.¬†You’ll be¬†much lighter when you get out of it. Always¬†remember the amusement especially when life¬†gets hard! ūüôā¬†