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Your Awareness Is A Tool

Happy Sunday! It’s Sunday before Thanksgiving! Instead of pondering what I would cook for Thanksgiving, I’m going to chill out and take a good care of myself! Sunday is a great day for that! Today. I left my short term job this Monday, so my week should be flower blooming and blue sky weather. Though, I’ve been quite busy with invisible matter. On surface, it’s been unproductive physically, but I know there are whole a lot more than just physical level. So, I’m ok with that. My blog got delayed because of that. I’m going to write about something related to my recent experience. I decided to write about your awareness. Hence, the topic is “Your Awareness is a Tool!”

Before I left my short term job, I had this image or thought popping up here and there. It’s been on-going for a while. There is one classmate from a long time ago when I started to show up in my teacher’s intuitive school. He is a very talented channel, well maybe he would put as talented “reader.” Whatever he does, healings or reading, it ends up coming from his month, meaning verbally communicate to the receiver what he got. When I was new to this realm, I wasn’t really interested in developing my intuitive skills or wanting to be a psychic, I was seeking for the “answers” to my life. I got stuck in my career twice by then, stuck in people whom I thought I cared and loved including my work, so my needs of getting the answers to where I can go was so loud. I didn’t care clairvoyance or healings or etc. As a beginner verses this classmate who seemed to know his talents for a  while, I was like in awe.

Fast forward the time, he was in the same clairvoyant program at first, but he left probably near the end of the first sequence. He disappeared from my teacher’s school for a  long time. Meanwhile, because I tend to function from the unknown wisdom in myself, I kept going through all the programs my teacher could offer. For I started to realize that I have such huge fear around this “spiritual” or “sixth sensory” realm. When my teacher suggested me to take the healing program right after the basic meditation programs have done, I was in huge resistance. I was a pre-med, trying to give up the passion to proceed in medicine. Healing the word “healer” was so unbearable. I was like “I’m no healer. I’m a drop out. Stop calling me ‘healer’!”

Well, of course, I had huge resistance so I kept going. It’s funny how it works around me because I have this strong “sense” or “voice” in me. I would call this as my “wise self” or “communication with my spirit self.” After the healing program was done, by the way, I was really not comfortable all the way, then my teacher offers clairvoyant program as a next step. I’m like, “ai.. I’m just seeking the answers! I need solutions to my life’s major turning point. I’m not going to be a medium or psychic. What does it do to me?” Anyway, I didn’t say that to my teacher, but I said many things which were along the line of  “I’m not a clairvoyant person” or “I don’t think developing psychic tools are my thing,” etc.

The only reason I decided to take the program was because of my strong “fear.” I could tell that I have so much fear around it. Not that I wanted to find out what this “fear” was, but I knew that having any sort of such strong fears wouldn’t be good for me. At least, I had this innate connection with my “wise voice.” So, I kept going with what my wise self was guiding me I would say. I had a hell of time. I never ever say I enjoyed the program. It was hard. I was having a hard time. It’s not that the program is scary or bad. I must have had so much stuff in me which needed to be peeled off. It wasn’t even peeling off. It was like tornados after tornados ripping and clearing thing out of me every week for the next one year. I was having a hell in life by the way.

The part of me, though, no matter how resistant I was and no matter how it was so hard for me to be in this specific class, I had a sense of “I need to at least show up and meet in the half way,” in other words, “I need to do my part by showing up, then the rest of it would be taken cared by bigger power.”

So, I completed the program while my former classmate dropped out of the program. I don’t blame or judge for whatever people do including him decided to discontinue the program. For it was hell of time for me. Who know how it would feel like for others because everybody’s journey is different. Everybody works on his/her own stuff. No one’s stuff is never the same to another.

Well, you think completing clairvoyant program is the happy end, right? Not exactly. My fear around this realm and “clairvoyant” matter was gone thankfully. My teacher gently invited me to do the assistance role in the next new clairvoyant class. I was like, “Well…. I don’t know, Ginna. Don’t you have a better person to do it? Well… I’ll meditate on that and will let you know. Would that be ok?” That’s how I normally operate. Even when I have an initial resistance, I meditate on it and clear energy from me to get a clear connection with the “Source wisdom,” so I can get a clear answer for my step around things. Yeah.. I did take that role. In fact, I continued to take that role one program after another till my teacher moved to across the water this fall.

Why am I writing my spiritual learning journey? Well, the classmate who disappeared from the program started to show up around the time I started to have a vision of him showing up. He came to one clairvoyant graduate class to receive a reading. I was attending to that specific class that day. So, I was in that reading. Although in my view, the message from the readings from multiple people there were crystal clear, he hasn’t quite completed his clairvoyant program. By the way, I’m not pushing sales person to say that clairvoyant is everything. Though, there are certain things that clairvoyant program would help people and his soul’s journey is definitely in that case for sure.

Fast forward again, I started to have a vision again about this classmate. I was busy handling my daily life by adding the short term job on top of my Zumba gigs and my spiritual/healing practice, so I didn’t have much time to ponder. So, I asked the wisdom what this all about. I got, “exchange.” So, I pondered. Then, I interpreted as “healing/reading exchange with this former classmate.”

Part of me was like, “well… I’m not sure if this is good energy exchange.” Though, I sort of don’t like things keep popping up and me not doing anything about it. If this isn’t a good call, rather it’s not a downstream move for me, normally things don’t run smoothly. So, either way, I would know. By now, I know how energy runs through my life and how my life tends to run through energy. So, I trusted that and went ahead and emailed him to throw an idea of exchanging healing/reading. He took the idea and we had the two exchange.

Ok, the introduction got really long, but that’s what’s going on between me and this person pretty much. Though, I think what happened was that his “wise self” or “Higher Self” was pinging me here and there because he needed something. What’s my part of exchange. Well, it was a so much work throughout this short two exchange we had, but I realized this morning that my vision, my clairvoyance is crystal clear than it’s been lately. By giving my part of readings/healings to him yesterday cleared my stuff pretty good. Yeah, I remember now that when you do readings to others, it also clear so much out of you as well. It’s very mutually beneficial.

I decided not to continue the exchange because the work around it takes so much time and work because of his state of spiritual awareness. journey. That’s ok, but I’m not really willing to have an extra work while I really need all my energy and focus on my priority matters.

As I look back the two short healing/reading exchange I had with him, I was crystal clear when his reading was questionable and when it might be something to ponder. If it was me before, let’s say if it was me during my initial clairvoyant class, I probably was just in the mess with all the energy and mixed messages coming in. By now, I realized when people say certain things which has some impurity, my senses and head put the dot on it and I start questioning. It’s like when you are washing vegetable, you discard what’s not good from a bunch, sort of like that. Well, it’s easy for me to say now after being more crystal clear without his energy in my space, but after receiving his readings in our first exchange, I was having a heck of time for a few days, though.

So, with all the long story combined, what I wanted to share with you is that you, yourself is a tool. Sure, I can teach you many many spiritual, energetic tools to help you navigate your daily life easier. That’s definitely useful and helpful tools. Though, the most important tool is you and your awareness. Unless you become a tool yourself, nothing really works for you so well. Even if you don’t exactly know what’s going on, as your awareness grows, you recognize things much quicker and easier (than it could have been without your present awareness).

With that, have a wonderful Sunday and lots of fun, love and gratitude on your Thanksgiving! 😀


Is It In Present Time? Or Is It In Past Time?

Happy Friday! Yes, another Friday! I’m so grateful it’s Friday, though. Mainly because I don’t have the side job on Friday. Also, I get to work on my spiritual work on myself and my healing/spiritual practice. Teaching Zumba in the evening is super cool! I do enjoy my morning classes, too. Though, the evening classes have a lot different energy and people for sure. I can really workout in the evening. Well, I’ll take it back. I can really workout in all of my classes because that’s what I do by teaching Zumba! Today, I’ll share about the sudden change in the same space and same environment I’m experiencing. Hence, the topic is “Is It In Present Time? Or Is It In Past Time?”

I have mentioned that I took a short term job. One day I looked up on Craigslist and saw the posting. Then, for some reason, I knew that job was for me. I think I grabbed it as soon as they posted it or something. It was fast. I saw a job before I headed down to my healer friend’s home for the appointment. In next minute, I was calling them already. Then, I was called to come in for an interview that afternoon. Luckily, my friend lived in the direction of that job. So, I arranged to meet them after my appointment with my friend. They ran a quick test, then interviewed me and I was hired that day and started to do the training and worked from the next day on. It was that fast. Really a downstream is something like this for sure.

It was a very short term project and I was told it would run between 4-6 weeks. Although a part of me was thinking that it was totally not my kind of work environment, something was right about it. I didn’t have to take the job home at all which was so new to me. Everything else including my Zumba gig and healing work were running rather smoothly. So, I knew it was the right place for me at that point. Anyway, the project ended on Wednesday evening.

While I was on the project, the HR person asked if I would like to stay after the project. I wasn’t sure, but decided to ask my options. The option was there to keep working, but the pay rate would be cut to low, the normal rate they pay for the employees. That was very discouraging because it was really low compared to what the project rate was. Anyway, as I have a tendency to have an idealistic view about work and I’m learning to change that view a little bit, I decided to keep the option open and told them that I would stay. So, I started to shift my work there from the project work to the regular work, which might not seem to be too different except the pay rate. I thought I was doing the right thing for me at a moment.

On Wednesday night when the project ended and majority of the short term hire left the work, I was in the training for the new, regular project work. Then, from the top, I had a very energetically rough experience. I won’t get into the details because I can’t really disclose what was about due to the agreement with the work. But, let’s say, I started to have one of my episode during the training. I could feel that the gate is opening up and I could feel, sense, hear, see what had happened in the past. Well, I’ll be a little more clearer. It was a training around a criminal justice system and it was related to a real case scenario. I could sense the deceased, and their strong emotions and pains. I had to request to take me off from the project and put me in the different project.

See, people don’t understand if they don’t know what I go through. People may view that I’m weak. I’m actually not a weak person. I’m super sensitive. That’s a very different thing. I’m not willing to deal with a murder scene and the deceased souls wanting to communicate their unfinished business when I’m not open to it. Besides, if it happened in the middle of my practice, that’s one thing, but this is a job environment. That’s a very different story.

That incident put me in the very ungrounded state that night. No matter how I set up the tools and ground myself, I was a little off. when I was on the different project, it was rough. I was getting all sorts of negative responses in the projects. Though, knowing that there must be something I can learn and gain from it, I was clearing up any negatives surfacing in myself all night that night. It got finally lighter when it was a half an hour till the end that night.

The very next day, I was put in the another project, so I was in the training again. There were several people in the training as well. There, again a very strange and negative things started to happen. There was a young kid who seemed to have some learning disability. That kid was making the training session slow because of whatever he’s got. That’s actually fine with me to be honest. I’m not really an impatient person unless it’s a personal attack to me or something. The thing which was more nerve whacking for me was that the trainer was very harsh to the kid. It wasn’t just him, but other trainer/supervisor was also harsh to him. Maybe this kid has history of something they know but I don’t know. Whatever it was, I was rather disturbed by their treatment to this kid.

Then, every time this kid screwed up something, the lady sitting next to me would literally whisper “OH MY GOD” and held her head. As I was trying to focus on the training, it was rather challenging because I haven’t worked in such environment where people seemed to be rather impatient or shallow minded. Maybe they have a good reason, like having a very stressful time in life, etc. Still, the negatives and dark energy in the training room was unbearable. I was clearing up the space and my third chakra all along and even after the training.

Also, the project itself was getting very rough on me. I was getting so much negatives from the project and I couldn’t really gain my expanded self in my third chakra all night long. When I finished the work and visited my favorite Trader Joe, I finally started to function like my normal self. Still, I was in the slight shock. My entire energy system was in trauma response almost.

When I came back home and did some email responses, my energy and my body started to come back to normal. My head started to work like my normal self. Then, I started to wonder what just had happened. The very next day today, I started to look for a different options of the side jobs. I applied for a very odd job I saw online. As I applied for the job and emailing my friend and my healing teacher about it, I had a clear picture more and more that my side job is no longer a “downstream” path for me at this point.

For the last few weeks, the very same space and environment was a clear downstream for me. In split second, the very same space has changed to the whole different energy and environment. It’s subtle, very invisible except the pay cut, but very obviously negative. As a sensitive person, this is too much to have in my life.

I thought I was learning the different way of working and clearing any residual lower vibration energy from the past corporate job. I thought it was a downstream move. Though, the same space, environment and people can shift to the totally different thing in the split second. I experienced it so visibly and I can’t still grasp the depth and mystery of the invisible realm in this universe.

The lady who sat to my next in the training was actually a beautiful, kind, empath lady when I sat next to her during the last short term project. It was a night and day. Sure, she might have some heavy stuff in life right now. But the change was so drastic that I couldn’t really believe what was happening in my eyes in front of me.

Ok, so all I have described above isn’t intended to say anything badly about the side job I took or a person. I wanted to share how things can change in a split second even if they’re about same people, same place, and same environment.

What I want to say is that we live in the ever changing universe. Everything is changing and we’re also changing every second. We can’t see visibly like a cup is melting in front of you or anything, but everything is changing in every second. So, whatever was working for you, whatever was applicable to you yesterday or five minutes ago can be no longer working on you. It’s all about present time and past time.

When your learning is done, there is nothing left for you to learn in the environment or from those people. Then, the same space, place, people can be no longer the same relation to you. You’ve done your work there. It’s time to move on. You cleared the karma, i.e., unfinished business or you’ve learned things you needed to learn from the person or environment. Then, you leave or the person leave out of your life. That’s how it goes.

When you look at your life, I would like to encourage you to check and see if things are in present time for you or past time. It was a perfect job. Sure, how about in present time? The job was horrible. Sure, how about in present time? Always check in if your environment and surrounding are in present time for you. Everything should be updated to assist your life’s journey, rather your soul’s journey.

With that, have a wonderful weekend! 🙂


November 2017 Newsletter – “You’re the Boss”

Happy November! It snowed in Seattle on Friday. It’s been quite cold around here. The cold weather is much different than the cooling down weather in summer or fall. The earth is preparing to dive into winter. As I sip a hot cup of pepper mint tea from my favorite Trader Joe, my intuition located a source of distortion in my energy field. Then, I’d present my moment of learning to the November Newsletter message!

The message for you this November is “You’re the Boss!” You may be working for someone in the organization. You may have a spiritual belief to relay on some spiritual helper guides. You might be financially depending on your spouse or some other forms of support system. You might be relying on your personal trainers, physical therapists, naturopath, or doctors to get your health and bodies in well shape. You might be leaning on your friends, partners, family or others in many ways to support your life, emotional, or mental system. Whatever you engage, you’re the boss. I’d like you to have a clear picture of that you’re the boss, manager and a controller of whatever you bring in your life.

Since yesterday, well maybe Friday, I had this strong anorexic tone of energy sat in my space. I say anorexic because there was a tone of “starving,” “ill,” and somewhat “eating up my energy.” I knew it wasn’t my energy; though, the clear out of this energy from my energy field has been a little bit challenging for some reason. I woke up every morning something sitting somewhere in my energy field. The more I proceed my normal meditation and tools set up routine with the energy clearing process alongside, I found the energy was louder in my lower layers, meaning body chakras and body layers.

We have the energy centers in body called “chakras.” In the system I use, there are seven in-body chakras from first chakra to seventh chakra, from the bottom of your spine to the top of your head. The lower chakras from first to third are your body chakras. Upper chakras are more energetic chakras, mental, spiritual, creative, etc.

This anorexic energy was sitting strongly in my first, then second, and third for sure. I wondered who and what this is since it’s rather odd to have this much direct energy invasion unless someone has a strong intent. I don’t have a Zumba gig today. I don’t have my term job. I don’t have a booked session from healee/readee today, either nor I don’t have the booked session till the following weekend at this moment. So, part of me pondered. Part of me was a little fearful. The funny thing is that I don’t really have fear about much in terms of my healing work because I’ve seen, dealt with so many things in the past by now. When unknown energy or beings sit in my space strongly while I do my normal clearing which doesn’t do much change, then I start to have this slight fear. “What’s this?” “Is this the entity against my healing and spiritual work?” “How can I clear this out?” “HELP! Supreme Being HELP!” That’s how my head start to say.

Since I’m off this Sunday from my short term project, I had more space to sit in the meditation and clear my energy field. Still, there was strange “being” and energy presence in my energy field. I could tell it was a female. There was a tone of blond hair which tells me probably a white woman. Though, there was a tone of “off planet” energy. Anyway, as I came out of the meditation and started to do some work on my computer, I sensed the similar energy coming in strongly again. So, I looked through the usual suspect: my wodpress website, emails, bank accounts, etc. The last thing I didn’t really care to look up was my eBay account. I looked up in the end and bingo! I found a sign there was some “communication” in that site.

I do eBay as part of my removing the olds to create the space for new. I used to take all in Goodwill. As I have done it, I noticed that the people who take the items in totally didn’t care if they were fragile material or if it was raining outside. I’m not calling on their work, just to be sure, but it made me realize that my purpose of taking those items to Goodwill is to be utilized by others who can use and appreciate. So, I learned that I need some other place who can connect my unused items to others who would enjoy using them. So, eBay came into the place.

The only problem with eBay for me is, since I’m a very energy sensitive person, the people who look up my listed items leave their energy in my listing site. If people put an offer, that’s much stronger energy coming through my space. If the offer or buyer has a very difficult energy to deal with, it does come through much harshly.

The “anorexic” energy sitting in my space was the last buyer from eBay I realized. This buyer, she has this strong unpleasant energy from the time she put an offer. I learned about people on eBay a little bit by now since I’ve been doing this about a year. People who do a business by buying items from others cheaply and selling those in much higher pricing to make a profit, they have a very specific energy tone. This lady was one of them. If I may add, she is a very ill energy with it. Not too cool.

At a moment when she made an offer, I had a thought of totally blocking this offer due to her unpleasant energy. Though, I went with my second thought and gave counter offer and dealt with it anyway. Ended up, she put a feedback, which is a positive and I appreciate it for that, but again that “feedback” brought in her energy into my space. Lesson learned. I would never discard my first instinct and never allow my human brain side talk me into the second thought. Hence, I had to deal with this anorexic energy eating up my energy field. I found the source, so it should be easier to clear now. I’ll send a boundary to this lady as a spirit-to-spirit communication that she can’t feed off from me.

Long story long as usual, the reason I spelt out my example of eBay was to show you that everything you bring into your life has to be managed by you. It doesn’t matter if it’s your social media, Facebook or YouTube. It doesn’t matter if it’s your mate. It doesn’t matter if it’s your friends, family or jobs. Or even it doesn’t matter if it’s your spiritual practice. You bring in those into your life, either you’re aware of it or not. So, I’d like you to know that the person who has to be in charge is you about everything in your life.

You might feel like relying on your spiritual guides. You might feel like seeking answers from a psychic. I’m not saying that you shouldn’t be. From time to time in your life, there are moment in life where the normal process of your guidance no longer applies. So, everything is there for a reason. I encourage you to use any form of assistance. However, giving up your seniority completely to anyone, including your mates or psychic, no matter how gifted they might be is not a good call. Same thing applies to the social media or any application system you use for your daily life. Sure, use it as long as it helps your work, life, etc. Though, not managing it well or being run over by energy coming into your space without knowing it is not a good call. Do you see what I’m saying?

Anything we do, anyone we meet comes with energy, good or bad. Not all has a bad intent, maybe majority of them are good. Though, they might not be good from your highest good sometimes. So, you have to be in charge of determining what is helpful, what’s not. I had a healing/reading exchange with my long time ago colleague healer yesterday for the first time. He is gifted, but he didn’t go through the whole training like I have done. So, I have to be very on top of thing around his messages. “Is it ok to trust his messages or rather safe for me?” “Did what he said come from his human programming or pictures or was it from the higher power message?” I’m still learning about his talent because we haven’t developed the trust in the spiritual exchange quite yet. I do trust him, but energy and spiritual dimension are much deeper and complicated.

Stay on top of your surroundings. If you gave up your seniority to someone else or something, that’s ok, it happens! Just bring your seniority back and set boundaries and be in charge in all areas of your life. You hire people, you bring people into your life to help you, support you, assist you, but you’re the one who discern the messages. You can always fire them if it’s not for your highest good, you know? Sure, I fired and have my healee/readee fired their spirit guides even. You can do that for people or beings, it doesn’t matter!

Have a warm and fun November by being in charge of you and your life! 🙂

With that, here are what I offer this November!

Holiday Special 3-hour Healing Package available – till January 3, 2018
3 hour Holidays healing package special is still available now till January 3 next year. You can use the package hour for your personal healings or readings, house and living space clearing or your business space consulting. The packages are well received by my regular healees/readees as they know they do come back for my services. Even if you’re new to my services, you can utilize the package deal in many ways. Maybe you need to clear up the energy from your home after your holiday get together stress is done. Maybe you need some assistance in going through this season. Maybe you need a little different view or a larger perspective on your business. Oh, I got another idea as I know my regulars use these ways. Maybe you want to use it for your partner’s or kids’ needs as well. Maybe you have a rental property which needs some clearing. Whatever works for you, here is a chance to try it out! 

3-Hour Healing Package Holidays Special

  • House Call Healing Package: $325 (travel fee included)
  • Remote Healing Package: $295 (paypal fee included)


Remote Healing/Reading 30 minutes session is available!
Just wanted to let you know that the session doesn’t have to be one hour, especially for remote sessions. For the first time session, I do need at least 30 minutes session because of the energetic needs of the healee/readee, but other than that, if you’re returning healee/readee who needs a quick energy check or quick input, it can be a short session. It all depends on your needs.

I’ll offer a 30-min remote session for the first time healee/readee for $45/30min session (regular pricing is $52.50 with paypal fee included). If you’re interested, call me at 206-486-4677 or email me @ naosan.healing@gmail.com to book a session!